Adam was killed in March 2007 aged 18
His mother Tracy writes
I lost my teenage son to an horrific car crash in March. I hope my heartfelt poems help others in my position to cope with their grief.
The first written quite soon after the event and the second, more recently.
I walked away that morning, without a backward glance,
I didn’t know that moment was going to be our last.
The last time I would hold you or see your lovely face,
The last time I would kiss you and feel your strong embrace.
So solid and so real,so vibrant and alive,
A happy face with twinkling eyes, my fine young man, my child.
My first-born son, my Adam, the apple of my eye,
so cruelly taken from me, I never said goodbye.
The shattered remnant of my heart is strangely beating still,
with holes so black and fathomless no light could ever fill.
I don’t know how I face each day without my darling boy.
Gone is all the happiness, the love of life, the joy.
The years stretch on before me, so bleak and dark and long,
I pray you walk beside me, son, and help to keep me strong.
And when my life is over, come to me on that day,
and smile at me and hold me tight and carry me away.
the wind that whispers through the trees, the brightest star at night,
a rainbow on a dismal day, a shaft of golden light,
All these are signs you send to me, a message from above,
that even death can’t break the bonds of Son and Mother Love…
You Walk Beside me Every Day
The days are long without you here, I’ve sat and cried a thousand tears,
that cruel fate did my life destroy and take away my lovely boy.
But you can wipe my tears away, you walk beside me every day.
The looming years that, more or less, just fill me with unhappiness,
are speckled with some happy times, when rainbows brighten up the skies.
I know you’re never far away, you walk beside me every day.
There will be anniversaries and celebrations that you’ll miss,
Oh, Adam, how we’ll miss you then, your booming laugh, your cheeky grin.
But you’ll be there, you’ll find a way, you walk beside us every day.
Sometimes I dream that I’ll awake and find it’s all a big mistake,
That you are here, you’re safe and well! with hugs and smiles and tales to tell!
And in my mind I hear you say, “I walk beside you, every day.”
The road ahead is hard and steep, with hills to climb and furrows deep,
and life will never be as good as when you, here beside us, stood.
But we believe that here you stay, you walk beside us every day.
At night you gently touch my cheek and memories are mine to keep,
of my sweet son, so deeply missed, since that first day your head I kissed.
Inside my heart forever stay and walk beside every day.