On the 18th January 2010 my boyfriend Steve was killed by a drink driver who had no insurance, no licence and had stolen the car. Steve was in the wrong place at the wrong time. I lost my life, my future and my soul mate. My life changed beyond recognition. I have gone from the happiest I have ever been, to the saddest. I didn't even know that it was possible to feel pain like this. A pain that is always there, and makes me feel like I can't breathe, like a ton of bricks is on my chest. Like I'm going to keel over and die too, of a broken heart.
Steve and I had plans together; Nights out, holidays and later marriage and kids. Now I go to see him at the cemetery and still can't believe it's true. That I will never hear his voice, have a cuddle and a kiss. He is my world and looks after me. Nothing is the same without him. I can never show anyone how much this has impacted my life, as the impact has been so great. Steve is a wonderful person and I love him with all my heart and soul. I would do anything to have him back. I will never stop loving him and will never forget him.
There will never be enough justice for Steve, as it can't bring him back. All I have to look forward to now is that I will meet him again one day.
Carly Lewin









